Life!!!

My Life atm is great!!!!!!!!!

I have a great job, great friends, good family life.

My job is fantastic! I work with my sister, im like everyones little sister in the office!!!

Rich is a fantastic person to work with!

My friends are fabulous!!!!

I Love my friends!!!

Ciao

I HATE MY PARENTS!

If its not one thing they have arguments with u over its something else. Today's argument was about jobs! Parents dont seem to understand that u cant walk into a shop and get a job on the spot.

I have a theory about some parents - they have kids, pick their favourite and then make it their mission to make the other childs life a misery, well mine are like that anyway! My brother is the favourite, he goes to private school, he has everything he wants, he doesnt get picked on. Me im just disregarded in the corner not bothered about until they remember every now and again oh we have another child. But no i get the arguments, the upset, the hate my brother gets the love, the attention, the latest new thing.

My life seems to be a rollercoaster one day its up but then another day it has to come down.

You know the happiest times of my life are not when i am with my family at home, doing things as a family. No the happiest times of my life are when i am out with my friends or working at Barratts with amazing people. I jump at the chance to go out with my friends and stay away from home because it would be one day without an argument, one day when i dont cry myself to sleep, or try to think up ways to kill myself or run away.

This afternoon i have been sitting at the end of my garden away from everyone after another heated argument between me and my dad and i was sitting their thinking wot would life be without my friends. The simple answer is i would not be sitting here typing this, i would up there where all the other dead people go. I was thinking if i killed myself how many people would come to my funeral, how many people actually care about me. The answer to this one is my friends (i hope) my mum, my grandma and grandad and my cousin i dont think anyone else would really care. Then i thought i dont need to die, i have my friends and so wot if the guy i like doesnt like me, so what if my parents are intent on making me sad and so wot if i dont have any money i still have my life and my friends.

One of those days

Do you ever have the feeling you know someone and then they do something unexpected?

Do you ever question life and wonder if its worth living?

Do you tell someone you love that you love them everyday?

Do you ever think of someone last thing at night before you go to sleep?

Do you ever confuse dreams with reality?

Do you ever wake up with that heavy feeling in your heart?

Have you ever done anything unexpected but nice for a friend/family member and never been thanked?

Is there someone in your life you would die for them to live?

Break My Heart - Hilary Duff

Why dnt u break my heart
Watch me fall apart

You see im falling apart

Look what your doing to me

It's had not been a good start to the week finding out that JH had cheated on me with his ex within less than a week of going out.

But things started looking up on monday with the amazing party at Jo's house!!! It cheered me up immensely!

But for what someone said has got me thinking about things in my head.

People say thinking too much can make things worse because u overthink things! But ive been thinking about this stuff since the early hours of tuesday morning and things haven't got worse but its just made me confused!

Thats all to say really

Hope everyone's exam are going good!!!

xxxx

All or Nothing

I want the best of you
I don't care if that's not fair
Coz i want it all
Or nothing at all
Theres no-where left to fall
When you reach the bottom
Its now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it end

Basically that depicts my feeling at the moment.
I am feeling so confused

JH left me for someone else when he said he was devoted to me.
The guy i really like doesnt like me but likes someone else
I miss my hobos soooo much!

Life seems to have reached the bottom at the moment
My family are driving me crazy.
Guys seem to be scared of being with me or else dont like me.
My friends are the only thing i live for anymore!
They are my life and i dnt no where id be without them.

Yesterday

Thanks guys so much for my photo i will make sure i keep it forever and never forget any of you. You are the best friends a girl could have. i will miss you lot sooooo much and will not ever forget you. You have made my life so enjoyable and now that the time has come for me to leave i dont want to go! I want to stay forever with you lot. I will always keep in contact with all of you and organise meet ups so we can catch up. Please dont forget me! :) if any of you havent got my msn its brooker800@hotmail.com. I wouldn't be here now if it wasn't for you guys, you have changed my life soooo much and i love all of you!!!!!!

Love Lauren

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Hmmmmm

Been thinking alot recently a bit too much probably!

Cathy complained that i didnt mention her in my blog yesterday so here you are CATHY I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!U R GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today has been good, really nice and hot - hope i get a tan!

Thanks Mat for cheering me up when i had a headache earlier! Ur lovely!

thats all to say really!

Lv u all
xxx