One of those days

Do you ever have the feeling you know someone and then they do something unexpected?

Do you ever question life and wonder if its worth living?

Do you tell someone you love that you love them everyday?

Do you ever think of someone last thing at night before you go to sleep?

Do you ever confuse dreams with reality?

Do you ever wake up with that heavy feeling in your heart?

Have you ever done anything unexpected but nice for a friend/family member and never been thanked?

Is there someone in your life you would die for them to live?

Break My Heart - Hilary Duff

Why dnt u break my heart
Watch me fall apart

You see im falling apart

Look what your doing to me

It's had not been a good start to the week finding out that JH had cheated on me with his ex within less than a week of going out.

But things started looking up on monday with the amazing party at Jo's house!!! It cheered me up immensely!

But for what someone said has got me thinking about things in my head.

People say thinking too much can make things worse because u overthink things! But ive been thinking about this stuff since the early hours of tuesday morning and things haven't got worse but its just made me confused!

Thats all to say really

Hope everyone's exam are going good!!!

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All or Nothing

I want the best of you
I don't care if that's not fair
Coz i want it all
Or nothing at all
Theres no-where left to fall
When you reach the bottom
Its now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it end

Basically that depicts my feeling at the moment.
I am feeling so confused

JH left me for someone else when he said he was devoted to me.
The guy i really like doesnt like me but likes someone else
I miss my hobos soooo much!

Life seems to have reached the bottom at the moment
My family are driving me crazy.
Guys seem to be scared of being with me or else dont like me.
My friends are the only thing i live for anymore!
They are my life and i dnt no where id be without them.

Yesterday

Thanks guys so much for my photo i will make sure i keep it forever and never forget any of you. You are the best friends a girl could have. i will miss you lot sooooo much and will not ever forget you. You have made my life so enjoyable and now that the time has come for me to leave i dont want to go! I want to stay forever with you lot. I will always keep in contact with all of you and organise meet ups so we can catch up. Please dont forget me! :) if any of you havent got my msn its brooker800@hotmail.com. I wouldn't be here now if it wasn't for you guys, you have changed my life soooo much and i love all of you!!!!!!

Love Lauren

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Hmmmmm

Been thinking alot recently a bit too much probably!

Cathy complained that i didnt mention her in my blog yesterday so here you are CATHY I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!U R GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today has been good, really nice and hot - hope i get a tan!

Thanks Mat for cheering me up when i had a headache earlier! Ur lovely!

thats all to say really!

Lv u all
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Random Post About Today

n if I lose it all there’d be nothing to lose
n I wld tk the fall
Coz knowing u r out thr breathing
Its so wndrfl
Its a chnc ill tk evn if I brk and I lose it all
Wldn’t mttr anyway
Dn’t chnge a thng
Perfect as u r
Time has a way
Time is all i've got
If my heart shld shine on watchin u
there wld b 1 last thng ive got to do.

Above is just something im listening to.
Today has been amazing, just lying in the Daisies and Basking in the sun all afternoon.
These are the things i will miss when im gone.
Everyones saying they dnt want me to leave but i feel i have to move on and not stay at collyers.
As much as i love you all, my life is outside of college and inside the world of work.
Today with the sunshine and just lazing in the park with Jess, Scarf, Cat, Phil, Gav and Cam. Thanks you guys for a great afternoon.
I wish i could stay just for seeing u guys, coz u make me feel so loved and so welcome! i've never had that before and want to treasure it! U guys are the best friends a girl could ask for and have made Collyers, lunch an break the best times of my life. Without u lot i wouldnt be what i am now!

Love you all
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My 17th

Hey Hobos

As u may know my 17th is coming up!!! woo!! As i never really celebrated my 16th i want to make this one the best ever!!! Since i now know u lot!!! since there are lots of u i want to ask for any ideas??? I want to make it a hobo spectactular with all of u there. If u have any ideas please email me, text me or leave comments!! I would appreciate any ideas no matter how silly!!!
cheers, love you all
Lauren
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Hobos (you know who you are)

Just a message for you all before i leave Collyers:

I love every single little one of you! You are the best friends a girl could ask for! My life would never be the same without you lot in it!

Ever since i met you lot last November, my life has been transformed! I actually love life now.

Little Personal Messages for a few:

Lexie and Kym: You 2 are truely the best without you i would not know the hobos.

Jess Buttery: The best business buddy i could ask for! Business is funny and u are mad especially when tap dancing!

Becky Felton: I love u loads, ribena and snow! SNOW BALL FIGHTS! and just hanging in Costa!

Scarf: You have been a great friend to me and have been there for me always! Tickling my back that will something i dont miss lol!

Cathy: My mummy!!!! I think u r amazing dont change!

To the rest of you i love you all and dont any of you ever change because u wont be the same when i come back to visit!!!

One last thing to say I WILL MISS YOU LOT SO MUCH AND HOBOS MY LIFE WILL NOT EVER BE THE SAME WITHOUT YOU! I WONT EVER EVER FORGET YOU DONT FORGET ME PLEASE!!